A Journey Through My Chakras
Follow the yellow brick road. I feel like for most of my life I have taken every coloured road possible. Make sense? What I mean is that yellow brick road for me leads to a set destination...Oz! In my life there has never been a set destination because every time I thought I had one the colour of the road would change and off I would go again down a different path.
The Red Road: I had to learn to ground myself in my life. I was all over the map and I had no idea where I was heading. This happened shortly after losing both my dad and my boyfriend of 5 years (within 3 weeks of each other...hello torn heart!). I navigated my way down this path trying to make sense of what had happened, not allowing myself to heal because a strong person can just keep trekking forward and finding I still had no idea where the hell I was going. Cue in Reiki and 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle. Two life changing modalities that helped me understand what was happening and how to find the connection and grounding I needed to move on onto the next adventure.
Exploring my creative side. I did a million things to explore this avenue. I travelled around the world living out of a backpack. I basically started to express myself in ways that did not require speaking. My creative juices were flowing and I was ready to have at it. I was also ready to explore a new career outside of nursing (Homeopathy) that was full of magically concepts and a gathering of brilliant, creative like minded individuals.
The Yellow Road: So now I am a Homeopath and Reiki Practitioner. Great! I know my life's purpose, I am confident in what I do and I can take over the world! Wrong, I started to realize where all my insecurities lie. Was I an awesome person, powerful and unstoppable? Could I be an entreprenuer? Of course not I had no background in business. Oh no! Am I actually healing with energy or am I making up what I am feeling and telling myself it's real. What a fraud! Ya...this was this part of my journey. As some of you may know it's called Imposter Syndrome. I had no confidence in what I was doing because as a student I was a learner, not expected to know 'everything'. Now I am a healer working on my own and treating real people with real problems. It took me a long time to navigate this road, to find my self worth, my confidence and to heal some of those inner child wounds that said "you're not good enough, try harder".
The Green Road: It's easy to love other people. I have been doing it my whole life. Time to take on the lesson of loving myself. How could I be whole if I couldn't love myself? I hated myself (not my mind so much as my physical body) for a very long time. I suffered from an eating disorder in high school and that type of dis-ease sticks with you long after you physically heal. I had to take time to figure out what loving myself really meant. Who am I? Why am I so awesome? How can I try to not feel guilty or in "ego" when speaking about myself? Another road that I still to this day jump on and off of but as time continues to ebb and flow I find I am discovering more love for myself than I could have ever thought possible. This then permeates into my energy field around me and into the world.
The Blue Road:The path of speaking ones truth. I never had a problem speaking my truth and to say the least many years ago I probably should have shut this trap from time to time. Now I find I am using my voice to represent not only myself but the masses. I speak for those who cannot speak, I engage in conversations of the deepest, darkest in nature (part of the job!) and I get to share all of my experiences and stories with those around me. I have the ability to speak my power into existence. What a powerful gift, to have the ability to physically manifest what has been spoken into existence.
The Indigo/Violet Road: ahhh....and here is where I shall rest. Over the last 2 years I have made huge gains on this road, discovering my energetic gifts and abilities. Healing the wounded with Homeopathy, finding the light in all those around me and making genuine connections with amazing humans who are all here for the same purpose. To exist, to experience, to love.